in four years, , my thoughts and perspectives on things have changed drastically. In our grief journey, we have embraced this life, whatever it brought us. Our life has never been a box of chocolate, but is it ever? is anyone's life what they always dreamed? I'm learning that although this life is far from the life I chose to have-it is everything. It is my life. It is the life that I was given. Each of us has dreams of this "perfect" life, but who defines a perfect life? Who sets the boundaries or the steps to achieve greatness? In our own life, I have learned the most when life doesn't go the way we planned. The irony is that without trials, heartache, and loss, this life would teach us nothing. Think about your times of growth. When did they happen most? Why did you learn? And, did you help someone else in the process?
Four years ago, I was 21 weeks pregnant with Bentley. We had just gone to DC, and we had an amazing day. We felt at the top of our worlds. We had plans and hopes and dreams for us and for Bentley. Seventeen weeks later that all changed. Our faith was tested. Our families were tried. And, here we were left broken to pick up these pieces of our life. I stand here today to tell you that in my utmost darkest experience of my life that I grew. I transformed. Blake and I embraced this journey, wholeheartedly. We dug our feet into the trenches. We fought for Bentley. We clung to our faith. We meshed together. And, we took our dreams and our despair and we have created a beautiful story. The threads of our basket are still weaving together, and I am anxious to see where our journey continues to take us. Which brings me to now.
Our pastor discussed at church on Sunday about how God has placed our kids, our families, strangers, and whomever in our lives for a purpose. We have crossed paths for people, and we need to spend time slowing down in life instead of passing time by worrying about what's next. This life os filled with fast paced and worrying about meeting goals. Now, I believe having plans are important, but I think I agree. I think that we can be most effective by investing in this life we have right in front of us. We have been given those people in our lives. God has orchestrated and entrusted us with great responsibility. At the end of this life, I want people to know that my life was spent investing in people versus ideas or events or groups or something big and extravagant. I want them to remember who and who walked in when the world walked out. I want them to know they are loved. I want to walk beside those in their darkest days. not for recognition but cor the purpose of placing value in others lives. I want to be a light shining in the darkness. I believe God has given me that calling.
So, you ask, what does this all mean. I wanted to share my heart today because I have decided to take a step in life towards focusing on my family, my friends, and those I met. I want to invest 100% of my life into the now. I want to enrich my life. I want to make this puzzle of our life larger. I want growth, and there is no better way to grow than self improvement.
Join us in this challenge. Look around at those in your life. Use what God has given you. Enrich lives. Challenge yourself and others. Be positive despite the challenges, look around and you'll begin to see the fruits of your actions.It's just another June morning, yes, yes it is. But its a morning we have been given to make value in our lives.