My hurt has been hurting so much for so long. And yet I never share that. My life has been overwhelming and crazy. I'm sure many can relate or see that sometimes my list has just seemed outta control. Just since October- I've had emergency surgery, Chase sick numerous times with his asthma, Chase had first set of stitches, and Briella had measles. And we've all been stuck with so many medical issues.
In 2014, we moved a total 3 times in a two month time frame. We inherited an exchange student and I began back to work. And that's al been within the last several months.
And those are the everyday life events. Those aren't the hidden behind the scene hurts of this life. I'm at a turning point in my life where I'm trying to place it all in God's hands to guide and direct the path ahead. I'm working to figure out what God's plan is for our lives and trust that whatever that is that he will be at the forefront of our lives. I'm turning the hurts over. I'm standing up and I'm walking forward. I allow so much to become personal.
Since Bentley died, I have become somewhat an emotional person. I view life different and my heart sometimes is too open of a door. I'm working on this. Im working to guard my heart from hurt. My baby boy has changed my life - I just want to help change others lives.