Well, I will be 18 weeks tomorrow! Wow, where did time go? It is moving SO slow, but it is moving so quickly. The weeks have been passing by, but you know what is so significant about this week?? I AM HALFWAY THERE!!!!! Wooohooo! I am still clinging to God because my anxiety catches me everyday numerous times a day. I keep thinking and feeling everything is great, but then reality hits me--everything was great with Bentley until week 38....so please continue to pray for my anxiety. It can eat me alive most days...
I go the doctors every two weeks still. My doctors have been great. They really comfort me whenever I start having major anxiety. I will start updating better about this pregnancy because it really is going to start flying by I believe, and I don't want to ever forget a thing. I have begun to really feel Chase moving, and so has Blake. It's crazy! There are moments that I just wish that I could lay down all day and hold my stomach so I can feel Chase moving. We use our doppler still, and I LOVE it. Such a piece of mind knowing that I can listen to Chase's heartbeat whenever I want to. It is very reassuring. He kicks the doppler because he probably says, "mom will you please let me alone? lol" But oh well, gotta do it because I just love hearing it. Well pics to come soon, and I will update more often! I
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Opps, I guess I missed 12 week update :( I'm slacking big time!!! All has been well. Just staying busy. No morning sickness to report. Pictures to come soon at next appointment which is Monday, February 27th!! Hoping that baby's legs are wide open so we can tell if boy or girl!
How far along: 11 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: 1lbs gain Look Pregnant? eh I don't think people can tell I'm pregnant, still kinda bloated most days, but I can start to tell... Maternity clothes: Normal clothes but I can't wait to wear my maternity clothes, odd huh? Stretch marks: Whatever I had from Bentley Sleep: Difficulty because fighting this cold, but also having nightmares Best moment this week: Getting the hear this babies heartbeat and see my ultrasound! Gender: Either, Blake and I just want a healthy baby! Belly button in or out?: In...mine never popped with Bentley Craving: Not really cravings this week What I miss: The blissful ignorance of everything that can go wrong in a pregnancy. That I am looking forward to: Making it past 12 weeks. Milestones: Finding out girl/boy!!!! :) How far along: 10 weeks 5 days
Total weight gain/loss: 1lbs gain Look Pregnant? eh I don't think people can tell I'm pregnant, still kinda bloated most days, but I can start to tell... Maternity clothes: Normal clothes but I can't wait to wear my maternity clothes, odd huh? Stretch marks: Whatever I had from Bentley Sleep: Difficulty because fighting this cold, but also having nightmares Best moment this week: Getting the hear this babies heartbeat and see my ultrasound! Gender: Either, Blake and I just want a healthy baby! Belly button in or out?: In...mine never popped with Bentley Craving: Not really cravings this week What I miss: The blissful ignorance of everything that can go wrong in a pregnancy. That I am looking forward to: Making it past 12 weeks. Milestones: Finding out girl/boy!!!! :) Baby #2 mommy and daddy already love you oh so much! How far along: 9 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: None Look Pregnant? eh I don't think people can tell I'm pregnant, still kinda bloated most days, but I can start to tell... Maternity clothes: Normal clothes but I can't wait to wear my maternity clothes, odd huh? Stretch marks: Whatever I had from Bentley Sleep: Difficulty the last several days, but hoping that since back to work full time, sleep will come naturally Best moment this week: Blake and I picking out items for Bentley's grave and spending time with Bailey and Blake Gender: Either, Blake and I just want a healthy baby! Belly button in or out?: In...mine never popped with Bentley Craving: Not really cravings, but I sure have been eating a lot of Fruit Loops :) What I miss: The blissful ignorance of everything that can go wrong in a pregnancy. That I am looking forward to: Making it past 12 weeks. Milestones: Well, I never really wrote about our appointment the other day. I know that everyone knows that we had a good appointment and we saw the heart beating, and we actually got to hear it. But, I wanted to take a moment to write about it. Blake and I arrived at the office so early, and we waited for my mother to arrive. We walked into the building, and we took the stairs because the elevator scares me. It has all kinds of issues and moves really slow; it makes me paranoid that something will happen and we will get stuck inside of it. my anxiety can not handle that one, for sure! So, we arrive in the waiting room, and my heart begins to pound. Not just a typical, "oh, I have a little anxiety". It begins to pound out of my chest. I was so nervous. And, I saw all the same faces, and I remember the days of walking into that office so excited to be there. Now, don't get me wrong I was excited to be there, but I wish that I was there showing off Bentley and being pregnant again!
We waited in the waiting room, and I watched all the pregnant women. It's difficult, even though I am pregnant. It is still hard to sit there and watch people with these huge bellies. And, it sometimes scares me. I mentally said a prayer for each pregnant women we encountered that day. Now, finally they call us back, and I became even more nervous. I walked those halls so cautiously. My mind was flooded of memories of my first office visit with Bentley. The nurse checks my weight and I go to the bathroom, then we go to the doctor's office. We discuss the events of Bentley, and what my prenatal care will look like. I was really impressed. The doctor was fabulous. And, he makes me feel very comfortable with the office. He advised that they would be doing a sonogram today for me. I was so happy! We go back to the waiting room, and we want for the ultrasound tech to call us back. Again, it felt like eternity. . I climb up onto the table, remembering that the last time I climbed on that table...was the last time with Bentley before we heard those awful words. Tears began to form in my eyes. The lady begins the ultrasound, and I was so worried. I was so certain that we either wouldn't see anything or that the babies heart wouldn't be beating. I know that sounds so wrong, but it is so true. I am completely honest. My worst nightmare has happened to me, so it is hard for me to expect something positive, when we have suffered such a loss. And, then it happened. I saw the flickers of Baby #2's heart beating. I remember mumbling, "Is that it?" The tech was like yes, hold on a second. She turns the volume, and we got to hear the heartbeat. OH MY GOSH. Blake, my mom, and I just began sobbing. Baby #2's heart was actually beating. I couldn't believe it. I remember fumbling to ask if the tech was going to give me pictures. She looked at me like I was crazy, but I just I think I was in shock. I am so happy that we saw Baby #2's heart beating. Blake and I could not have been more happy. Please continue to pray for us. Please continue to pray for healing with precious Bentley, and the journey of healing; as well as, the hope and the future of baby #2. We continually need it everyday! This pregnancy will be a rollercoaster. I am on countdown. my next appointment is February 14, 2012. Valentines Day! I can't wait to see this sweet baby How far along: 8 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: None Look Pregnant? still feeling bloated Maternity clothes: Normal clothes Stretch marks: Whatever I had from Bentley Sleep: sleepiness letting up just a tad, but i still def enjoy my sleep Best moment this week: Cuddling with Blake while he holds his hands on my belly Gender: Either, Blake and I just want a healthy baby! Belly button in or out?: In...mine never popped with Bentley Craving: Not really cravings, but just if I get something on my mind that I want to eat...then we had better eat it that day! What I miss: The blissful ignorance of everything that can go wrong in a pregnancy. That I am looking forward to: Making it past 12 weeks. Milestones: 1st appt o How far along: 7 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: None Look Pregnant? Haha of course not yet! but def starting to feel bloated! Maternity clothes: Normal clothes Stretch marks: Whatever I had from Bentley Sleep: AHHHH! So sleepy all the time!!! :) but I'm not complaining Best moment this week: Spending time with Blake while changing Bentley's grave over from Christmas to some January stuff Gender: Either, Blake and I just want a healthy baby! Belly button in or out?: In...mine never popped with Bentley Craving: Hm...Captin Crunch Peanut Butter Cereal! What I miss: The blissful ignorance of everything that can go wrong in a pregnancy. That I am looking forward to: Making it past 12 weeks. Milestones: Lab work Tuesday of each week, and a big on |
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