Christmas Eve again. Another year has gone by. Another holiday without Bentley. A holiday that brings such joy and excitement for our children living but yet a sad lingering feeling that's above us knowing there's always one less.
When you lose a baby people don't always know. There isn't usually anything physically demonstrating to the works that you're a bereaved parent. But, when you enter the store you're always shopping for one less. You notice the empty seat at your table and realize that's where your baby would sit. We turn around in our car and notice one less carseat. We notice one less shirt or pants or shoes to wash and clean. You notice the things the world doesn't see. People believe you're exhausted because we have two little ones but most days I'm more exhausted because we have one less.
Holidays bring out a lot of emotions for everyone but my heart breaks for each parent whose buried their child and experiencing it will one less :/
Bentley is always in our hearts and in our mind but her Bentley sized hole will not ever be filled. Until that day we are a family again . That day we will be complete and no more will we be one less..