Life has been pretty busy lately! I've been beyond blessed by everything though. I have hit some milestones in my grief and I am feeling pretty good. As a loss mom, my heart will always ache for my Bentley. My friend Hannah calls it my "Bentley hole". And I believe that to be true. There will always be a void, but I've become to learn to live again.
I never thought I'd feel that way...it's insane how much your life changes in the blink of an eye. I recently posted about how life after loss is really like learning to crawl and talk and walk just as if you were a baby yourself again. It's an entire new world that we experience as loss parents. It can be quite overwhelming. But, one day at a time, we pick up our feet--one by one--and we learn this way of life. Not because we want to, not because we are strong, and certainly not because this is the life we dreamed.
Life has really picked up "work wise". I have several clients, so very excited. Plus we've really been working on fundraisers for Faces of Loss. And, I've been planning workshops that I present through Stillbirthday.
Just a short check in. I'm falling asleep. It's 1am and I've been up since 5am!! Everyone else is sleeping why am I still awake!?!