"Sailboat"
I feel just like a sailboat
I don't know where I'm headed
But you can't make the wind blow
From a sailboat
I have seen the sun
Felt the rain on my skin
I've been lost and found
But mostly I've been waiting
Oh I'm out in the waves
I'm hoping and praying
Please let this wind blow me home
Night after night there's an empty horizon
And my God do I feel so alone
Sometimes life, most times I, feel just like a sailboat
I'm pretty sure I'm heard
At least I know I'm speaking
But I feel like a fool
Cause I can't hear you listening
But I'm not giving up
Oh I will move on forward
I'm gonna raise my sail
God knows what I'm headed towards
Oh I'm out in the waves
I'm hoping and praying
Please let this wind blow me home
Night after night there's an empty horizon
And my God do I feel so alone
Sometimes life, and most times I, feel just like a sailboat
The only change I see
Lost or found, let's see
The only difference is believing I'll make it in
Oh I'm out in the waves
I'm hoping and praying
Please let this wind blow me home
Night after night there's an empty horizon
My God, do I feel so alone
Sometimes life, most times I, feel just like a sailboat
I found this song. And, I love it. I think this song portray so much of the person you become when you lose a baby or experiencing any sorts of trials.
I haven't written a lot in the recent months. Maybe I've had a writers block. It certainly doesn't mean life's been easy or I haven't had things to say. Come on now, we always know Steph has something to say. :)
In three and half years, my life has taken so many twists and turns. I've seen dark days, and I've seen joyous days. There has been more than the human eye usually sees, and I want to recreate his blog. I want to go back to why it originally was started. I started this blog to process my thoughts and emotions through the eyes of being a bereaved parent, but this blog was not created solely to process my own emotions but bring awareness to the life of a bereaved parent. I wanted to make people feel less alone. I want people to feel less alone. I want them to feel as close to normal as this "new normal" allows. I want people to realize this life-- it is hard but it is also so rewarding. One in four women experience pregnancy and infant loss.
Every minute a mother gives birth through stillbirth. Every second a mother gives birth through miscarriage. That's a lot of families. A lot of brokenness, a lot of empty dreams, frustration, confusion, anger, and so much more packed into one experience.
This life may be temporary, but how do we survive this life? How do we walk each day knowing that we are always missing one? It's not easy. And most days, I feel like a sailboat. In one perspective, it's not so bad to be a sailboat. :)
Welcome to the start of my newest blogging journey! Keep me accountable people...if you see me slacking..give me a nudge. :)