Today, I was exactly where I needed to be...I floated to a few different wings of the hospital due to short staff secretaries. I went to one unit that I never ever go to...and as I'm minding my own business, I over hear someone asking this nurse how the baby was during and I turned to see her pat her stomach.
The nurse responded with tears in her eyes that she had lost the baby at 19 weeks...my heart sunk. Chils ran up my arms. They are again...I turned and I said I am so sorry. I understand...because my son Bentley was born still just 18 months ago almost...
She sobbed and kept apologizing. I explained she didn't have to stop nor apologize that I totally got it and she had every right to cry or be sad. It was a God moment. I was supposed to be there. I was able to share a lot wih her and i hve her my contact information. She thanked me and said I was needed to be there for that reason that day...and ya know what? She was right!!
I can't explain the overwhelming sensations and comfort that I have been finding lately. Everywhere I go I meet someone. I get to be Bentley. I have a life.
I live bentleys life literally...I have never felt more connected, needed, understood before in my life and it is because of Bentley.
I completed my last exam with my doula class. I have a few other things to complete and ill be finished. I can't believe it! And it is just the beginning...
Thank you Bentley. Thank you Blake. Thank you mom and dad and Jeff and Sharon and everyone who has supported me. Who has me here. I wouldn't be living without it. I am beyond feeling blessed today.
The nurse responded with tears in her eyes that she had lost the baby at 19 weeks...my heart sunk. Chils ran up my arms. They are again...I turned and I said I am so sorry. I understand...because my son Bentley was born still just 18 months ago almost...
She sobbed and kept apologizing. I explained she didn't have to stop nor apologize that I totally got it and she had every right to cry or be sad. It was a God moment. I was supposed to be there. I was able to share a lot wih her and i hve her my contact information. She thanked me and said I was needed to be there for that reason that day...and ya know what? She was right!!
I can't explain the overwhelming sensations and comfort that I have been finding lately. Everywhere I go I meet someone. I get to be Bentley. I have a life.
I live bentleys life literally...I have never felt more connected, needed, understood before in my life and it is because of Bentley.
I completed my last exam with my doula class. I have a few other things to complete and ill be finished. I can't believe it! And it is just the beginning...
Thank you Bentley. Thank you Blake. Thank you mom and dad and Jeff and Sharon and everyone who has supported me. Who has me here. I wouldn't be living without it. I am beyond feeling blessed today.